wow
Jul. 19th, 2007 | 07:41 am
mood:
excited
Damn has it been a minute or what??? Like seriously I almost forgot I had this damn thing.. although its been so long I did forget my password :-/ but thats ok ... anywho just wanted to see if this thing still worked and apparently it does... although I must say that I think Livejournal is trying to be alittle too much like myspace :/ but I love myspace so who cares!!!!!!!
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May. 23rd, 2006 | 07:03 pm
mood:
high
yup been along time since i wrote in this here journal lol i'm at jen's and i'm kinda burnt can't type and dont have much to say so yeah :P
oh and my ass hurts lol
oh and my ass hurts lol
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Apr. 5th, 2006 | 12:45 pm
mood:
high
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Fucking Birthyday to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Fucking Birthyday to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
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Its not the years in your life that count.... its how you live them
Mar. 2nd, 2006 | 10:39 am
mood:
ditzy
ahhh yes I know it tis a wee bit early for me to be writing in here.. but I woke up at 8:30 and was wide awake so I figured I would come to my sisters and chill with her before I have to walk up to saco and get my check lol funny thing is my sister just fell asleep haha ... awwww I have some serious fucking cramps man.. I dunno my mind is racing a mile a minute so if nothing I say in here makes any sense then thats ok because when do I ever make sense??? This past week has been kinna stressful trying to get everything ready for Tim to come back... it seems like its not alot I have to do but I just want everything to be perfect as pathetic as that makes me I could really care less... I love him I really do but the only thing is I've been away from him so long that when he comes back if shit with him hasn't changed I have no problem ending it.. I really don't ... I'm getting to point where I need stability and if he can't give that to me after this long then I need to find it else where ya know? anyhole I've also been having the strangest dreams lately of people that are no longer living ... I had this one dream like was like a regular dream but there was this girl that kept popping in and out like a ghost.. it was weird .. she more or less just kinda chilled in the background watching my dream.. it was totally creepy and extremely hard to explain... then I had another dream about D which I don't know if its because me and J were talking about him the other day or if its because his 2 year annivarsary is coming up or what but in my dream he had come back 2 years later saying that his death was a scam like he had diliberately faked his own death so he could either run from some people or sober up I can't really remember but I do remember in my dream that everyone was pissed because they had all attended his funeral and were convinced that was him in the coffin but it was all a scam to make people think it was really him.... I dunno sounds out of whack but I'm still confused by it .... I've also been thinking about my friend Chris lately... I was talking to him with this kid Rob I work with and they were good friends so it just brought up alot of sadness thinking about all the people lost in the past 3 years...... its kinda makes you think alittle bit ya know? Like how much time do you yourself really have left.. and what you want to do in that period of time. I wish I knew exactly when my time was up so I could figure exactly what I want done before that time comes. Eh I have the dumbest thoughts sometimes its a wonder I'm a stress case lmfao ....
Anyhole thats my analysis on my dreams lately lol .... ahhh I have alot of shit to do this weekend.. .well it doesn't seem like alot ... but I want to go get my nails done tomorrow because I have today and tomorrow off.. I also want to somehow get to the mall because there's some stuff at Spencers I think I want to buy ;) woohooo ... lol and I need to go to wal-mart and get an air mattress... plus I have to pick up a bottle and some food... AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! SYSTEM FAILURE SYSTEM OVERLOAD... god why can't I just be left alone :P lmfao j/k gotta do what you gotta do right???? I dunno I make no sense today or anyday so I guess I'ma just go and chill til I gotta go get my check and shit :P PEACEEEEEEEEEEE
Anyhole thats my analysis on my dreams lately lol .... ahhh I have alot of shit to do this weekend.. .well it doesn't seem like alot ... but I want to go get my nails done tomorrow because I have today and tomorrow off.. I also want to somehow get to the mall because there's some stuff at Spencers I think I want to buy ;) woohooo ... lol and I need to go to wal-mart and get an air mattress... plus I have to pick up a bottle and some food... AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! SYSTEM FAILURE SYSTEM OVERLOAD... god why can't I just be left alone :P lmfao j/k gotta do what you gotta do right???? I dunno I make no sense today or anyday so I guess I'ma just go and chill til I gotta go get my check and shit :P PEACEEEEEEEEEEE
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Feb. 25th, 2006 | 05:05 pm
mood:
devious

You are a Stewie. You are somewhat smart, babyish
and evil. You are also very funny, although
you do not seem to notice it. And also
congrats - Stewie is my favourite character!
You have some certain intriguing aura around
you, whatever that may be. Please rate :)!
Which Family Guy Character Are You? Also part insanity test! Includes Family Guy
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Feb. 24th, 2006 | 03:21 pm
mood:
cheerful
music: Unpredictable Jamie Foxx Feat. Ludacris
Man what a long week it seems like ... thank god I have today off.. I worked 10-7 the last three days and I'm beat... today I came to my sisters mainly because I haven't seen her or Jaeden in awhile but she also asked me to be here when Ang dropped her off because sara had to go to the doctors and it was the cutest thing ang put her on the floor and I was talking to her and she crawled right to me... last week she could only crawl backwards but now she follows you wherever you go if you tell her too .. if you just get up to walk away she'll start talking jibberish which is good because its better than her screaming but if you tell her to follow you she does... its the greatest thing i'm so excited!!! poor thing hasn't had much sleep tho because she has an ear infection... boy I remember what those were like I actually had tubes put in my ears twice.... I guess its hereditary in my family my sister had them my mom had them and I had them the worst but now jaeden just got her first one poor thing... but she's getting better .. I just can't believe she's crawling ... god shes getting too big already : ( pretty soon she'll be a year and will be talking ... holy we're in for it now : )
anyhow other than work and that not alot has gone on... don't really have anything planned for the night unless something just comes out which I doubt but ya never know... well I'm off to do something with myself I'm not quite sure what that could be but its gotta be better than this : P peace
anyhow other than work and that not alot has gone on... don't really have anything planned for the night unless something just comes out which I doubt but ya never know... well I'm off to do something with myself I'm not quite sure what that could be but its gotta be better than this : P peace
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Feb. 14th, 2006 | 04:59 pm
mood:
exhausted
Whats up all you lovers out there? Hope you special people are enjoying your special day. Unfortunately I'm not enjoying this special day because my boyfriend is not here to spend it with not that we would probably do anything anyways but just the fact that he was here with me would be enough. I'm trying to send him a text message but my phone is being retarded and won't send it... I actually have to call him soon to wake him up from his nap. But other than that I'm just living today like it was any other regular day... been working all week I'm kinda beat plus I've been wicked sick.... been sick for about a week now.. jenns been wicked sick too ... we both went to timmy's like last week and both ended up getting really sick... I hope mine goes away soon... I mean I feel better but my chest is all congested and I'm extremely tired like more so than I've ever been ... but work is ok ... I mean my boss already has me working 40 hrs and over so thats awesome...the more hrs the better my day goes cuz I'm not sitting around thinking ... I'm tired of thinking all the fucking time... I just want to clear my foggy head and start anew.... my head is so clogged with shit that when it comes to certain people I can't sort out my thoughts.Its like I have all these voices going on in my head ( not not like a crazy person) but they're my voices... like I have my regular self... I have my sad self, my angry self, my intellegent self, and my stupid self, and they like battle the shit out of eachother so I have all these conversations going on inside my head yet I can't get them out of my mouth if that makes any sense? I dunno maybe I just don't get myself so I don't expect other people too. I dunno it would be nice to get out of my head someday and seek better and more interesting things than the inside of my brain muahahaha. Well I guess I'ma go I'm having an interesting conversation with Jennn about her and buried bodies under her bed and how this guy who I've never dated just befriended still loves me hahahaha what a world well I'ma go finish talking with my loves and I'll holla back another time
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Feb. 11th, 2006 | 04:53 pm
mood:
high
Sitting here at Jenn's house bout to smoke some crizzzack :P jp ya'll know what I mean... any hole just got out of work and now I'm chillin wit mah home fry having some good laughs ...,... today was a pretty long day been up since 6 worked 8-4 .... blah I don't even know why I'm writing in here right now I honestly have nothing to say muahahahahahaha or do I?? ; )
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Feb. 7th, 2006 | 07:40 pm
mood:
sick
Well I thought I would write in here right quick before I went home... today was my first day at work... I'll admit I wanted to leave like right at first... but I knew I couldn't and I knew I needed the money so I took it for what it was.... it actually wasn't bad... I mean I'm definately not staying there for the rest of my life its just temporary because I really want to go to school and take those computer classes... now that I have a job I can.... and I have to work tomorrow at 10.... dude today I almost didn't even make it because I haven't slept in two days I couldn't sleep at all last night and I must have passed out good because I didn't even hear my alarm go off... I woke up in a pool of sweat I was so dizzy and discombobled .. it was aweful... I caught some seriously nasty shit... like last night I was burning up really bad I couldn't even take it... I can't remember the last time I felt like that.... and my kidney lungs back and ribs hurt wicked... but either way I made it to work anyways... as sick as I am I couldn't look like a fool for my first day.... anyways... yeah I feel like real shit... Sue Skeet and Hailey came over too that was pretty cool... brought me a bag :) although we smoked two joints I feel like total shit now... like getting high makes me feel so woozy and floaty when I'm sick... I don't like it much... I hope its just a random cold but I've never felt this shitty before
Well as shitty as it also is I'm walking home... I don't really want to wait until Jay gets home cuz thats still an hr away and I'm really tired.... so I hope that doesnt make it worse... I have like three shirts on plus my jacket so I think I'll be alright
Well goodnight all much love
Well as shitty as it also is I'm walking home... I don't really want to wait until Jay gets home cuz thats still an hr away and I'm really tired.... so I hope that doesnt make it worse... I have like three shirts on plus my jacket so I think I'll be alright
Well goodnight all much love
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Feb. 5th, 2006 | 04:23 pm
mood:
cheerful
Well its official... I have a job now.. not that its the job I want to work at or anything but hey you gotta start somewhere... I need to be making money while I go to school... school is definately a necessity in order to get the kind of job I want and love.... but for now I will be working at the BK at least it'll be full time.... fuck it all the money I make is just going to end up in the bank anyways... plus its kinda of funny because Dunkin Donuts called me today too so I'm in a bind of sorts of which jobs I want to do.... I dunno I start BK tomorrow morning so we'll see how that goes and if I don't like it I'll just call dunkin donuts when I get out... either way its money and thats what I need right now...... YAY... and My baby will be home next month and I'm so excited I can't wait to see him.... I want to go shopping either this weekend coming up or next weekend... I kinda want to go to Spencers in the mall and check out some of the shit they have there ; ) yeah I know he's trying to bring the freak out of me but who gives a fuck... gotta make your other happy right..... so I also saw some outfits online that I'm going to get also.... so yeah I think it'll be fun : ) I just can't wait to see him... I really can't. I love hearing him say I love you to me its makes me feel so good inside.
In other news its the Superbowl today... blarggg... I don't really care about football at all... I only watch it because he does.... I dunno but the Steelers are playing so that'll be who I root for secretly... I'm totally bored too Jay will be home soon and all he's gonna wanna do is watch football and no one I know is around so I'll probably just go home ... I really don't want too but whatever such is life ... I know I'll clean : ) maybe switch my "rooms around a bit" lmfao well I'm off catch ya'll laterrrrrrrrr :P
In other news its the Superbowl today... blarggg... I don't really care about football at all... I only watch it because he does.... I dunno but the Steelers are playing so that'll be who I root for secretly... I'm totally bored too Jay will be home soon and all he's gonna wanna do is watch football and no one I know is around so I'll probably just go home ... I really don't want too but whatever such is life ... I know I'll clean : ) maybe switch my "rooms around a bit" lmfao well I'm off catch ya'll laterrrrrrrrr :P
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New Awesome Song Ya'll Should Check It Out
Jan. 31st, 2006 | 05:29 pm
mood:
hungry
Chris Brown "Yo (excuse me miss)
whoa whoa
do do do do do
yeah
yeah
(verse 1:)
yo,
tell me fellas have you seen her? (seen her)
it was about five minutes ago
when i seen the hottest chick
that young'n
never seen before
i said yo,
tell her girls i want to meet her (meet her)
on a second thought that ain't the way to go
i got give her game proper
spit it so she'll get it
there she is i got to stop her
i think i'll say
(chorus:)
yo
i dont know your name but excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
and i got to admit that you got my attention
you're making me want to say yo
i know you're trying to leave but excuse me miss
i save the last dance for you
how i look to keep you with me oh baby
(verse 2:)
now shorty grab hold of my hand
and let's pretend the flow is ours
you say you don't really dance
don't worry about it
we'll gust 1,2 step
1,2 step
now if teh music is is moving too fast
brab my hand a little tighter
don't afraid to move a little closer
girl, there is something about you that makes me want to say
(chorus(2x):)
yo
i don't know your name but excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
and i got to admit that you got my attention
you're making me want to say yo
i know you're trying to leave but excuse me miss
i saved the last dance for you
how i look to keep you here with me oh baby
(breakdown:)
i want to be where you are
ain't nothing wrong with dancing
baby it's so romantic
baby i can be in your heart
so many things i want to tell you
i think that i should start by saying yo
i dont know your name excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
i got to give her game proper
spit it so she can get it
there she is- i got to stop her
i know your trying to leave but excuse me miss
i saved the last dance for you
how i look to keep you here with me oh baby
(spoken:)
now everbody just clap your hands like this(like this)
just clap your hands like this (whoo like this)
and if your shorty in the house tonight
just grab her by the hand homie
make her understand yall was made to dance like this (like this)
yall was made to bounce like this (whoa like this)
just let her know she was made for you.
and you want to do everything she want to man.
(laughs)
whoo!
whoa whoa
do do do do do
yeah
yeah
(verse 1:)
yo,
tell me fellas have you seen her? (seen her)
it was about five minutes ago
when i seen the hottest chick
that young'n
never seen before
i said yo,
tell her girls i want to meet her (meet her)
on a second thought that ain't the way to go
i got give her game proper
spit it so she'll get it
there she is i got to stop her
i think i'll say
(chorus:)
yo
i dont know your name but excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
and i got to admit that you got my attention
you're making me want to say yo
i know you're trying to leave but excuse me miss
i save the last dance for you
how i look to keep you with me oh baby
(verse 2:)
now shorty grab hold of my hand
and let's pretend the flow is ours
you say you don't really dance
don't worry about it
we'll gust 1,2 step
1,2 step
now if teh music is is moving too fast
brab my hand a little tighter
don't afraid to move a little closer
girl, there is something about you that makes me want to say
(chorus(2x):)
yo
i don't know your name but excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
and i got to admit that you got my attention
you're making me want to say yo
i know you're trying to leave but excuse me miss
i saved the last dance for you
how i look to keep you here with me oh baby
(breakdown:)
i want to be where you are
ain't nothing wrong with dancing
baby it's so romantic
baby i can be in your heart
so many things i want to tell you
i think that i should start by saying yo
i dont know your name excuse me miss
i saw you from across the room
i got to give her game proper
spit it so she can get it
there she is- i got to stop her
i know your trying to leave but excuse me miss
i saved the last dance for you
how i look to keep you here with me oh baby
(spoken:)
now everbody just clap your hands like this(like this)
just clap your hands like this (whoo like this)
and if your shorty in the house tonight
just grab her by the hand homie
make her understand yall was made to dance like this (like this)
yall was made to bounce like this (whoa like this)
just let her know she was made for you.
and you want to do everything she want to man.
(laughs)
whoo!
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Yup This Is The One
Jan. 31st, 2006 | 05:26 pm
mood:
loved
Ohhh.. Oh Oh..
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
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Jan. 31st, 2006 | 04:31 pm
mood:
loved
Well today has been eventful... had to sit through a workshop for almost 4 hrs!!! fucking crazy man but I did it.. everything else is starting to look up as well... except for the whole not having a job yet but I suppose good things come to those who wait. But also things with Tim are really starting to look up... I'm starting to see a side of him that I've yearned for soo long and thought I would never see. He started learning out to do text messages on Aaron's phone and he told me how loved me... I couldn't believe what I was reading at first until the messages kept coming... things like you don't realize how much someone means to you until you are away from them and that he loves me very much and wants to be with me. I honestly believe every word he says and don't really care what others think because I've been with him for almost 4 years and this is the first time ever him letting me in his heart and telling me the things I need to hear. Its starting to break my negative tough side that he's only seen .... When we talk and get off the phone now he tells me he loves me..... when I'm out doing my errands he sends me text messages telling me how much he loves me.... I'm totally sooo happy now because now I know that he's mine and things will be much different when he comes back. I want to move away with him.... not far but definately not around oob areas... He may not have been the greatest for me in the past but people change and I'm starting to see that.... and I feel anyone who brings in the negativeness about the past is only going to push me away including my family. I don't want that to happen but the more they push the more it will. It takes time and energy to with hold a relationship its almost like a marriage... for better or for worse.. take the good with the bad .... and just grow. I'm also about to look online at Greyhound because I want to go to Penn. for a weekend.... depending on how cheap I can get it I'll probably go next weekend. I need to get away if only for a few days. So that'll be pretty exciting... thinking I'll leave here on a thursday night and come back monday... we'll see I'll have to check it out... well thats all for now :)
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Jan. 22nd, 2006 | 02:42 pm
mood:
content
Sitting here at my sisters and both sara and baby are sleeping... big surprise there lol... I'm pretty tired myself but like I ever sleep...I woke up feeling kinda shitty this morning... like nauseated .. plus last night I got this really bad pain in the corner of my pelvic... I hope its not kidney stones again... I seem to get them right around feb. every year and it fucking sucks... especially now where I don't have maine care or any source of insurance...so I would just have to deal with it this time. Anyhole lets just hope its a bladder infection or something dumb .... I have quite a busy day tomorrow ... well to me it seems busy... I have alot of shit to do I just don't know which order I'm going to do them in. I definately have to go to the Career Center because thats part of my re-employment program. I also want to check out an agency that is supposedly in the same building. I also wanted to check out Bonney Staffing Center but I don't know where that is. I also have to go to the bank, get some money, buy another card for my phone because I only have $9.90 on it left which is alot because I don't really talk on it but I'd rather have the minutes on it just in case. I also need to remember when I go to the bank is to remember Penny rolls... I have alot of pennies and I want to roll them up so I can put those in the bank as well. I'm doing really good about the whole saving the money thing..... I give myself a certain amount a week and thats it... as much as I just want to spend it lol I can't and I won't. I also need to make sure I send out my work log form tomorrow and call the school. Damn like I said tomorrow's a busy day for me... oh and not that I wanted to mention it but I also need to stop by either Dunkin Donuts Burger King or Wendys to see about applications... its totally not something I want to do but while I'm waiting for the agencies to set something up for me ... I need to bring in more money than I am now... so thats just something to do for the mean time. Then depending on if Jay is closing or not I might stop at Shaws and grab shit for dinner for me and my sister. I wanna get up at the butt crack so I can get all this shit done early. So I figure 9 is good so I can probably be at my sisters by 2 or 3 depending on how long it takes me. Well folks thats my update for the day :P
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Jan. 20th, 2006 | 03:05 pm
mood:
flirty
Why does the sun go on shining? Why does the sea rush to shore? Don't they know it's the end of the world, `cause you don't love me anymore? Why do the birds go on singing? Why do the stars glow above? Don't they know it's the end of the world? It ended when I lost your love. I wake up in the morning and I wonder why ev'rything's the same as it was. I can't understand, no I can't understand, how life goes on the way it does! Why does my heart go on beating? Why do these eyes of mine cry? Don't they know it's the end of the world? It ended when you said good-bye.
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Jan. 20th, 2006 | 02:46 pm
mood:
crazy
Blah what is the point of having a cellphone right if you aren't even going to answer it??? Like why even bother have it??
anyhole I'm totally bored yet I don't feel like do anything but I want too... does that even make any sense?? I also want to get a bag even though I don't and I shouldnt but I want too?? Now I just have to find a way to get it... and find someone to chill with that will get totally ripped with me and say fuck everything else.... if you are that person and you're also bored like me but don't feel like do anything but want too .. then give me a holla... :P
Oh did I also mention that I'm totally unstable :P
anyhole I'm totally bored yet I don't feel like do anything but I want too... does that even make any sense?? I also want to get a bag even though I don't and I shouldnt but I want too?? Now I just have to find a way to get it... and find someone to chill with that will get totally ripped with me and say fuck everything else.... if you are that person and you're also bored like me but don't feel like do anything but want too .. then give me a holla... :P
Oh did I also mention that I'm totally unstable :P
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I am at peace with myself
Jan. 17th, 2006 | 05:38 pm
mood:
high
Whats Your Stoner Nickname? (PICS)

Mother Earth
You are very in touch with nature and your elements. You enjoy smoking because its natural and helps you understand more about life and why we live. You probley dont shower much and have dreds. Over all you are a pretty chill person to smoke with.
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Jan. 13th, 2006 | 02:42 pm
mood:
blank
So yeah I feel like complete ass crack... I still can't eat much.. my sister made steak last night which is my absolute fav. and some small potatoe and cheese thing.... i ate all that cuz it was small but i only ate like half of a half of steak and just couldn't eat it. Im not like trying to be like this ... I normally love food man fuck it right? but I'm almost thinking that my mind is being smart right now because it knows when I crash and get depressed like this I would eat.... but I'm sorry I'm not fixing to be no fatty by the end of the month... I'd rather starve than stuff myself useless... lol hehe sorry that was funny admit it. Anyhole what are ya gonna do. Well things are kinda looking up a smidge not alot but better than at all. Jay cashed one of my checks for me so hopefully tonight I can go to Cingular and get more minutes on my card... and cool enough my number is still the same. WooHoo .... it's only 2:46 pm and I haven't heard from him yet... at least he called yesterday whether I talked to him or not.....but the longer this goes on without talking the more I feel negative vibes of course vibes I create in my own head because lets face it I feel for the worse in every situation .. and thats gotta end cuz its totally fucking with my head. It truely is. I just miss him.
In other news its official I lost my ID.. I went home last night and looked everywhere for it and I couldn't find it at all. So somehow I'ma have to get to south portland to get a new one... I think mine runs out this year on my bday and its old school so it wouldn't hurt to get a new one right? But it'll probably take me 1,000 years to get up there.... but hopefully soon because I really want to open a savings account so I don't have to hold on to these checks.... I definately wouldn't cash them but they are only good for so long ya know so its better to get them in a bank now than lose em......
In other news its official I lost my ID.. I went home last night and looked everywhere for it and I couldn't find it at all. So somehow I'ma have to get to south portland to get a new one... I think mine runs out this year on my bday and its old school so it wouldn't hurt to get a new one right? But it'll probably take me 1,000 years to get up there.... but hopefully soon because I really want to open a savings account so I don't have to hold on to these checks.... I definately wouldn't cash them but they are only good for so long ya know so its better to get them in a bank now than lose em......
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Jan. 12th, 2006 | 03:37 pm
mood:
aggravated
grr what a day... went and did all the stuff I said i was going to do and go figure the most important thing which was open a bank account and buy minutes for my phone i couldn't do because I can't find my fucking ID anywhere so therefore couldn't cash my checks and obviously couldn't buy minutes for my phone... I'm so aggravated so I walk all the way from biddeford doing my shit along the way then get to my sisters to listen to her voice messages and one was from Tim calling at 2:21 pm and I finally got here at 3:00 wtf is that all about.... and of course as usual Jay doesn't answer the fucking phone... wtf .... and he didn't leave a call back number and says he'll call maybe tomorrow... maybe tomorrow??!!!! wtf is that bullshit I need to talk to him today.... its been a shitty three fucking days and all I want is to talk to him to find out wtf is going on....................... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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Jan. 11th, 2006 | 05:40 pm
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crappy
Pick the MONTH that you were born & color of your eyes and put it on the SUBJECT LINE. Then re-post it AS YOUR OWN BULLETIN. Your friends might understand you better
blue eyes - people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make love . will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care or love for, repost this if you have blue eyes, and you will find the one that you are ment to be with within the next 7 days.
brown eyes - people with brown eyes last the longest in bed. . they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards. if you repost this if you have brown eyes you will have the best 5 days of ur life!
green eyes - people with green eyes have the most passion put into having sex, they don't have sex with strangers and rarely will have a one night stand, therefore they have lasting relationships with great sex. you will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.
hazel eyes - people with hazel eyes have the most sex positions and techniques. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY experience. if you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your favorite technique while having sex in the next 3 days.
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JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MOST HORNY OUT OF THEM ALL.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. AND ALWAYS HORNY!!!!
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APRIL:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. sexy but has brains.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Totally BADASS. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
You've got the best personality (bar none) and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You are probably a massive Burzum fan, and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection (that is better than anybody elses from any other month). You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - hell, youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitely more metal than anyone born in February (especially Simon from Seventh Cross).
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JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. Artistic. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. ~Best sex partner anyone could ask for ! hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
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SEPTEMBER:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Very skilled at making love. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Messy, playful, secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
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DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. SEXY. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praise
blue eyes - people with blue eyes are very attractive, adorable, loves to make love . will do anything for that special person. kind, and polite. can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. loves to please the one they care or love for, repost this if you have blue eyes, and you will find the one that you are ment to be with within the next 7 days.
brown eyes - people with brown eyes last the longest in bed. . they are very satisfying and love to please and can EXCEED your pleasure standards. if you repost this if you have brown eyes you will have the best 5 days of ur life!
green eyes - people with green eyes have the most passion put into having sex, they don't have sex with strangers and rarely will have a one night stand, therefore they have lasting relationships with great sex. you will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.
hazel eyes - people with hazel eyes have the most sex positions and techniques. they're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY experience. if you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your favorite technique while having sex in the next 3 days.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
JANUARY:
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.MOST HORNY OUT OF THEM ALL.
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MARCH:
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. AND ALWAYS HORNY!!!!
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APRIL:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. sexy but has brains.
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MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Totally BADASS. Best person you'll ever meet!
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JUNE:
You've got the best personality (bar none) and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You are probably a massive Burzum fan, and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection (that is better than anybody elses from any other month). You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor yourself - hell, youve got the looks for it!!! You are definitely more metal than anyone born in February (especially Simon from Seventh Cross).
_______________________________
JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. Artistic. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. HOT. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
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AUGUST:
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. ~Best sex partner anyone could ask for ! hates studying. in need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed. a fighter.
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SEPTEMBER:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
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OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
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NOVEMBER:
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Very skilled at making love. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Messy, playful, secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
____________________________
DECEMBER:
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. SEXY. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praise
